Carrie Baker – The Growth Collective

Sometimes in moments

Of deep frustration

I felt that maybe

God was a little harsh

In his creation of mothers.

This pulling and tearing

Myself in two

Being ‘Mummy’, but also

The very person

I was created to be.

The desire to be alone

To withdraw and write

But when I find I am

I feel the pull within

To have them close again.

Then I remember, He

Is not a cruel God

He loves me infinitely

And empowers me to walk

Between Mother and ‘Me’.

This poem is inspired by my own struggles, thoughts and feelings as I try to carve out time in my life to write.

A book I began reading again called ‘The Divided Heart, art and motherhood’ by Rachel Power, (which was given to me years ago) has never felt so relevant than at this moment.

This is for those of you who walk the edge between the raising children and having a creative soul. Because when we fall in love with our babies, the ache to be creative never dies.

Finding the energy and time to write/draw/paint/stitch/design etc, while keeping our small ones clothed and fed and the house to not look like it was turned over by robbers… is not for the feint of heart.

Take the moments you can, and create something! Give yourself permission to do what is so much a part of you.

You were created for a purpose, you are loved.

You are mother and you more…

Much love to you brave one,

Carrie xxx