Carrie Baker – The Growth Collective

I have to be honest.
Leading up to this day, I have had very mixed feelings about my journey to the homeland.

I guess it was more the knowing that I HAVE to go to apply for a spouse visa, than it feeling like a long holiday without the kids.
Yes I am looking forward to seeing friends and family when I get there, but I have thrown myself into our new life in the UK so well, that there are people I’m going to miss – quite a lot, and that’s not just the family.

I held back the tears as I kissed my children and husband goodbye, and was whisked away by the beautiful Bev to catch my coach.

We laughed and chatted over our drinks while we waited for the coach, and after a quick squeeze we parted ways.

The coach driver looked tired and explained that the actual driver hadn’t shown up so he was working an extra shift. I thanked him for showing up instead, it would otherwise have been cancelled. Mr Legend – thanks for showing up!

So I sat in my seat with the sun in my face, and I felt…….peace.

The only kind of complete peace you can experience, when you know the God who created all things. 

Over this last couple of weeks, I have learned to let go of a lot of things.

The control I tried to have over my life, the welfare of my children, my personal future and what it holds for me and for us as a family.

For most of my life I’ve had trouble trusting, people, but mostly God.

So I can say for certain as I sit here in the departure lounge at Heathrow Airport, I know my father in heaven is leading my life in ways I never though possible. Also that He will care for the family He gave me while I can’t be with them.

That old saying, ‘Let go and let God’, well I’m trying my best to do that.